[ but makoto does, because rin's frozen to the cement edge of the pool, water sluicing between his toes. there are truths and there are truths, but this is one that remains paramount in the present: fearless rin matsuoka swallows down wave after wave of fear and still can't rid his mouth of the taste. ]
i just if all our memories are just bits and bytes why are they doing this???? why make my memories disappear why make your BODY disappear i keep thinking about what would happen if i go see him and i i don't know i remembered him before he showed up what if i see him and i forget again
[ the conversation they'd had only days prior. makoto paralyzed, rin the goading force. now the world is on its back and the chlorine rises in his lungs and rin's not certain of anything but his own powerlessness. it's an ugly feeling. an old feeling. ]
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[ but makoto does, because rin's frozen to the cement edge of the pool, water sluicing between his toes. there are truths and there are truths, but this is one that remains paramount in the present: fearless rin matsuoka swallows down wave after wave of fear and still can't rid his mouth of the taste. ]
i just
if all our memories are just bits and bytes
why are they doing this???? why make my memories disappear
why make your BODY disappear
i keep thinking about what would happen if
i go see him and i
i don't know
i remembered him before he showed up
what if i see him and i forget again
[ the conversation they'd had only days prior. makoto paralyzed, rin the goading force. now the world is on its back and the chlorine rises in his lungs and rin's not certain of anything but his own powerlessness. it's an ugly feeling. an old feeling. ]
you don't understand. he was terrified